Last year, after returning from a trip to Buenos Aires, Argentina, and Bogota, Colombia, my vision was so blurred that I was became afraid that I was losing my sight completely.
The optometrist discovered a virus on my corneas. I was grateful to have “unveiled” the reason for my blurred vision, but in the days that followed the diagnosis, I wrestled with what that diagnosis implied for my physical body and my ability to work.
As the blurriness subsided, eye fatigue and eye strain continued to be factors, and seeing detail, especially to read, was nearly impossible.
Much of what I do in life and in ministry is dependent on eyesight. No matter how good a typist I claim to be, I need to be able to proof what I have written—whether for a blog post, a thank-you note, or the lessons I am working on.
There is much value in the Word that is written in my heart, but I was unable to read and study the Word as I would like, whether for a devotional thought or in preparation for the next book.
I wrestled with feelings of guilt and frustration—mostly because, yet again, I was focused on a dependence on my own abilities. I was quite literally reminded that I must walk by faith, not by sight.
In what ways are you depending on your own abilities—your “sight”—instead of walking by faith?